29/7/14

I always put on a brave face but that’s not always brave of me.

Tuesday 29th July 2013

I’m not feeling well and I’m scared that if I tell people how bad things are things will only get worse.

29/7/14

29/7/14

29/7/14

All the buses I was on today had this happy little sign.

Anonymous asked:
When I click the link, it just leads me to a page that only allows me to message you, but I already have the password

Greetings Anon.  If you click on the door down the bottom of the personal pictures page and just chuck in the password and your good to go.  Not to nag but be careful when your looking at that page.   <~3 Josey

Anonymous asked:
Hi so I already have the password for your locked account, but do I have to message you again in order to gain access to it? Or how do I do it??

Hi there Anon.  If you already have the password then you are set!  Just click the door link, put in the password and that’s hit.  Take care Anon <~3 Josey

My Second Suicide Attempt {Part 11}

So when I was on the ward 8b the psych people came back again and told me that I had been put on an involuntary treatment order under the mental health act.  They said that that meant once I was medically stable I would be transferred to the psych ward and not discharged until they were satisfied that I was safe.  While I was on the ward I met a lovely women called Lucy, who was visiting her husband who was in the bed opposite me. My parents and boy friend visited very day which broke up the boring a bit.  The psych people visited a lot too.  They had lots of questions.  They told me that their bed meeting was tomorrow and that I should get a bed on H floor.  H floor is mostly women and old people so it’s a pretty safe floor compared to the others.  I asked the shrink how long I would have to stay and he said usually two weeks. My stomach dropped when he said that.  I’d already been in hospital for two weeks and I just wanted to go home.  The shrink asked if I’d been taking my medication and he got so angry when I said no.  I said that I was taking it before I was admitted to hospital but somehow he thought it was my fault that I didn’t take them when I was in ICU, what a jerk.  Later that day a young skink also came to talk to me.  He was nicer then the morning shrink.

Anonymous asked:
Hi I was wondering if I could have the password for your self harm pics. I am here if you need anything you are so strong never forget that!❤️

Good evening Anon, idk if I can say evening yet as it’s only 5:10pm here but it’s getting kinda dark so I will say it anyway.  I don’t want to make the password public so I can’t send it to you while you’re on Anon, sorry.  The whole password thing is to protect you guys to also me as well as I don’t want Tumblr to have a hissy fit over my self harm pictures and delete my blog.  So just message me back off anon and I can send you the password.  Take care Anon. <~3 Josey

Anonymous asked:
hii. my name is nicole and im sending u this to tell u that i loved ur blog. especially your collage diary. love it! sad yeah but such a creative way to show it. I like that stuff :$ keep up with the good work in that diary and less of the "bad" work on ur skin :x (/._.)/ ~huggles ...take care xx♥♥♥

Hi Nicole (I love being able to call you by your name instead of Anon and yours is a pretty name too!).  I’m really glad you like it.  I should be doing some more pages tonight so hopefully there should be some for you to have a look at.  It’s really odd cause I can’t express myself normally but if I have a new creative idea that I want to try the word just sort come.  My skin could definitely use a break!    <~3 Josey

PS I love your little face that you drew at the end of your message.  You take care too!

Anonymous asked:
I'd like to see the pictures, if that's alright with you.

Hello Anon.  Of course it’s okay if you look at the pictures but you do need a password.  And sorry but I can’t tell you it here as you’re on Anon.  I happy to give you the password but I’m not comfortable making it public.  Just message me back off Anon and I’ll send it to you.  Please don’t be embarrased or anything like that about asking for it, okay?  <~3 Josey

Anonymous asked:
We're all rooting for you. Chin up baby doll! Do what's best for you. Not what best for the doctor. What's best for you. Love ya sweetie

Anon, I have to say this first even before I way hello, THANK YOU!  Okay now I can say hello to you Anon.  I comprised with getting proper pain killers.  I went to the chemist and got Prodeine with is paracetamol and codeine, so hopefully that will help with the pain until the Thursday.  <~3 Josey

Monday 28th July 2014

I’m worried (again).  I haven’t been able to eat properly since my OD but I have been basically pain free if I haven’t eaten.  But over the last three days my stomach has been killing me.  I’m taking the maximum amount of over the counter pain killers that is safe and it still hurts so bad.  I don’t want to go to my doctor as she’ll be so disappointed that I cut.  I’ve got a repeat endoscopy on Thursday.  On one hand I want them to see something so there is a reason why I’m in pain but on the other I don’t want them to find anything either.